'012 HARD

yeezy!!!! happy new year shwwtyy!!!!!
2012..........
get ready to be................ tired.
so today's twenty-first of January .12.
pretty miserable, tired, and others negativity words that have been poured to my vocabulary, since this semester. it should've been "hell yeah! senior year" and it turns out to be "let's get this over with". and also lack of sleep, losing-n-getting weight. i feel like i need to sleep properly and now it's like every alarm and books are shouting at me to get up, be tired, and open books.
everything is very limited, too much waiting, and lack of confidence.
i would love to be shot on the chest and sleep till the end of this misery.
i wanna laugh hard, love hard, and play hard, rather than too much bad within' every day. hopeless dreams, been destroyed couple of times, missing all the appointments with my psychiatrist, and also a hopeless heart.
especially waiting for this guy(s) i really do like, and i know i'm very busy lately, but i really wanna be with him, it feels stupid waiting for something you know it's hard to get, it's like you know you are in a right road to ride on, but there's no end to where i wanna be, i feel like i'm in a right destination, but i'm tired of just sitting there and ride with it, all i can say, waiting is sucks. need to move on, which i can't. so yeah, HARD!

THE BOTTOM LINE IS, MY DAYS ARE TOTALLY SUCKS, AND I REALLY WISH I COULD MOVE ON FROM THIS AND JUST JUMP INTO ANOTHER BETTER LIFE. AND SO I HOPE ALLAH WILL SUPPORT ALL MY DECISIONS, AND JUST RUN WITH IT. BISMILLAH........
FOR MORE INFORMATION, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HANDLE ALL OF THIS, SO I'LL CATCH UP SOON................

~sarah, T.H.E.